A Tribute To My Best Friend, My Grandma, The Nanz

October 4, 2016
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LAURYN

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Hi guys,

I have some really devastating, shitty news. In fact, it’s the saddest news I’ve ever publicly shared on this blog.

My grandma, The Nanz, passed away four weeks ago.

As you can imagine the loss has not been easy on my family.

You guys know, she was my best friend. I spoke to her everyday, if not two or three times a day. We made a point to get together weekly.

If I’ve seemed distant, it’s because I am. If I’ve seemed distracted, it’s because I am. If I’ve seemed off, it’s because I am. I’ve been coping with a huge loss. In all honesty, it feels like a limb is gone.

Losing my grandma has been just…gut–wrenching.

I have not been ready to share this with anyone but today I woke up & was ready. Normally I would shy away from something so very personal, so close to my heart, but I feel like she was such a bright light on The Skinny Confidential that it’s unfair to keep her passing from you guys.

Besides, she was the biggest star of this blog.

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My grandma’s passing took 8 painful weeks. So the last three months have been…stressful. Incredibly stressful on me & my family.

Even though my heart is sad & this loss is so difficult, I find peace in looking back on her life with a smile. She was THE MOST dynamic, special woman I have ever met. Everyone loved her. I swear I’ve never seen anyone with more friends. Her will to live was strong. My sister just had a baby, Daxton & she had many chic looks planned out for our wedding.

For those of you who don’t know, The Nanz’s real name was Mary Evarts.

On that note, I wanted to share this beautiful tribute of her work on The Skinny Confidential:

Having some form of privacy is very important to me. I’m guarded with specific things because it’s not just about me, there are other people involved & it’s not always my business to involve them. I do, however, want to share a very small snippet of some words at her wake. Here’s a tiny piece of my speech:

I always knew where to find The Nanz on a Wednesday.

She was either having a blowout with a glass of champagne alongside her friend & hairstylist, Shawn, at the post office, or walking around Home Goods with Slipper, her teacup chihuahua perched in a shopping cart.

Of course she was doing all of these things in oversized gold glasses because I once told her it was cool to wear sunglasses indoors.

Walking around Home Goods was one of her favorite things to do. It was how she got her cardio. Slipper loved it too. Everyone that worked there knew her ( & him ) on first name basis.

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Sometimes I’d surprise her at the post office or grocery store & we’d go to this hole in the wall sushi joint called Tabu. We’d always order the same thing: I’d get a veggie avocado roll & she’d get the vegetable tempura. Of course, each of us would always have a glass or two of Pinot Grigio, still both wearing our oversized sunglasses. We’d gossip like best friends. That’s what I loved most about her.

My grandma was not only my grandma but my best friend.

I think the reason this loss is so difficult for so many people is because she was SO many people’s friend.

She had friends everywhere. At the bank, at Drybar, the vet, her home complex, old friends, new friends, young friends, family friends, friends from different states, friends on the Internet, my friends were even her friends. Everywhere she went she made friends.

A lot of them would call her Miss Mary or The Nanz.

People loved The Nanz. She may have been in her late eighties but she was sharp as a whip. Sometimes I’d say vulgar, perverted jokes thinking she wasn’t hip enough to understand but OOOOHHHH she was.

SO hip in fact, she was working up until the day she passed. Millions of people all over the world fell in love with her through the Internet. She became known as The Nanz. She was approached by flower companies, spice companies, & even a bracelet company to rock their products. No surprise but Snapchat also fell in love with her. People were always requesting more of The Nanz. Basically she was a real hustler.

The last two years of her life people would come up to her and ask her if she was ‘The Nanz.’ One day she called me out of the blue & said “Lauryn, I’m becoming famous.” 

I laughed & laughed.

Laughing was the theme with her though. She called Uber “Uboorah”, had a best friend named BJ, thought Bingo was dumb and for “old people”, & told me she was sick of all the “SUVS” taking up street space around town… I had to let her know they were actually called S-U-V’s, not “SUVS.”

She was really the brightest light in my life.

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The speech goes on but I’ll leave it there. I feel like that’s a happy snippet to share with you guys because so many of you loved her. And I have to tell you, & I mean this, she LOVED all of you. The attention she received from TSC readers in her later years made her feel very special.

Side story: a TSC reader named Rachel ended up being one of her nurses. Rachel recognized The Nanz in the hospital & would sit with her daily, getting to know my grandma. Over the weeks the formed a friendship. So cool! Rachel & I are going to meet for coffee next week. The Internet can be a pretty spectacular place. This special friendship they formed gives me comfort.

…Crazy, you guys liked her and her hot pink bomber so much you even wanted her on the podcast ( episode 16 if you want to listen )! She came on & told us all to “look outside at the shrubs” if we were ever feeling down or depressed. I’m looking at the shrubs everyday now : ).

If you’re new to the blog & haven’t gotten a chance to get acquainted with her…please do, her words of wisdom are one of a kind:

♡ Meet The Nanz
Whispering Angel with The Nanz
The Best Ever Holiday Pecans
Relationship Realness with The Nanz
The OG Egg Salad
The Nanz’ Insider Flower Tips

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I don’t really know what to say here. If you’ve detected a sadness in me in the last 3 months it’s because there is. Definitely have had to take time away for a few days here and there & just…grieve. For the past couple months, I’ve been in a sad space. Life is hard. It’s not easy; nothing worth while is easy…And this certainly has not been easy on me or my family. My amazing dad ( her son ), Brad, was her best friend too. So my heart hurts for him. It hurts for my sisters, my brother, my stepmom, The Nanz’s daughter, my cousin, & all her friends. My heart aches for any of you who have lost a grandparent.

The loss is deep.

There has been a lot of loss in my life & through that loss I’ve realized that you have to look at the good. The good was that I had my grandma until she was in her late eighties. The good was that I was able to document so many special moments on this blog; moments that I will cherish forever. The Nanz got to meet the love of my life. They formed a very special, funny relationship. She was able to drink champagne with me, laugh, AND WORK! Crazy, but man did she work, you guys. I had her on-call to shoot blog content all the time. Such a cool memory. Our favorite moments were simple though: enjoying crackers, Gruyère cheese, cornichons mini pickles & listening to the tennis balls outside her home.

This post is to honor her & to let all of you know what’s going on because I feel like so many of you loved her. I can’t even believe how many people have asked for more posts on her. Hundreds. If not thousands. To not tell you guys just didn’t feel right.

Ok, so this was by no means easy to write. But I will be ok. I just feel…sad. Knowing her though, she’d tell me to “throw on some oversized sunglasses, pour a glass of rosé, & listen to a little Bossanova, Kitty Kat.”

Again, thank you all for showing her such kindness on the blog, she adored each & every one of you.

xoxo, lauryn

+ a big thank you to Chris Tran who helped put together these amazing pictures & video. 

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  1. Kara

    Made me cry!!! She touched so many, I can’t even imagine how hard this must be. My grandma is aging and it’s such a reminder to cherish those amazing people in our lives while we have them here ❤️ She will be a beautiful angel

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  2. Liz S.

    I hate to use this cliché statement, but please know I’m being 100% genuine when I say that my deepest thoughts and prayers go out to you during this incredibly tough time. Your grandmother seemed like such a gem, and I have no doubt that her memory will live on and she will always watch over you. Keep her legacy alive xo

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  3. Alexis Cherney

    Oh my goodness. I cried reading this. I am so sorry Lauryn! The nanz was a legend and her memory will forever live on! I know this is not easy. Your readers will forever miss her <3

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  4. Nadia Myburgh

    Hi Lauryn,

    My heart and literally my eyes are sobbing with tears right now.
    I have been following your blog for years, and it’s become my daily newsletter and routine. Legit, every day, the first thing I do when I step into my office, is opening up your blog and read. It’s my therapy.

    A week or two ago I mentioned to a friend that something hasn’t been quite the same lately, with your writing/style/something. I don’t know, just something. Wasn’t the same. But, I also remember that you mentioned weeks ago that you’re going through something serious and that you’ll share it once you’re ready.
    And so I’ve waited. And waited. And waited.

    To say that this was the absolute LAST thing I ever thought I would read, is an understatement.
    I am so so so very sorry for this loss. My heart is breaking like she was my very own NANZ.

    Love,
    Nadia

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  5. Richelle

    Oh Lauryn! I’m so sorry for your loss, she was truly an amazing soul and I’m sure she’s still with you being proud of the amazing soul you are. You are so lucky you had such an awesome connection with your Nanz and it’s going to be hard for a while missing her, but when you had your time of sadness you can celebrate the precious moments you had together and I believe she loved you so so much she will never leave your side. Shes your protecting angel now and you will feel her when you need her to be there for you. Xo

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  6. Kaitlyn

    Awe, so sorry to hear! That video was so cute. Looks like she had such a fun personality. Thanks for sharing that tribute with us. Praying you find strength and peace during these hard times <3

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  7. Sarah

    So sorry for you loss. I loved reading all of the posts with The Nanz and lis tending to the podcast which featured her.

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  8. Sharni

    Hey beautiful girl. Just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. The Nanz really was such a light in this world. Not even knowing her I can see that. I hope the grieving process is kind and gentle on you and everyone else who loved her. X

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  9. kaitlin

    I am so very sorry for your loss! Losing a loved one is never easy, especially when you have such an incredible relationship with them. Your Nanz will always be there in spirit. I feel lucky we got to “meet” her on the blog, she certainly seemed like the life of the party~

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  10. Amy Getz

    What a lovely tribute to The Nanz . . . it’s wonderful that you were so close to your grandmother and realized her amazing value in your life. Peace be with you.

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  11. Chelsea

    Lauryn,
    I am so sorry for your loss. What a spectacular gem she was. I will have my mom pour some rose for her in heaven.

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  12. Julieann

    ❤️❤️❤️ my heart broke reading this. i’m in actual tears… i did not expect this when you said a few weeeks ago that you were going through something… i lost my grandmother two years ago & to say it’s the worst thing i’ve ever been through is an understatement. reading your blog posts with The Nanz always made me think of my grandmother and how close we were too… i felt comfort in your blog posts & i only hope that you find something that can bring you comfort and help to fill the void in your heart. sending you SO much love. ❤️

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  13. Rachel

    I’m so so sorry for your loss! I lost my grandma a few years ago and can understand how difficult it is. I first saw your video on YouTube and immediately knew why you had posted it but thought to myself, “no no no, maybe it’s just a tribute for her birthday or something!” So I had to come check the blog to see. 🙁 Man. My heart hurts for you. Hang in there and know that us readers are all sending you and your family (and Nanz!) so much love! <3

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  14. Yara Miora

    My most sincere condolences dearest dearest Lauryn. I wish you and your family all the strength in the world to process this loss. Thank you for sharing and for bringing her spirit into our lives. Definitely a fierce lady to look up to forever.

    Liefs,
    Yara

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  15. Ashley

    Oh Lauryn, I can’t imagine the pain you must be feeling. I loved ‘meeting’ your precious grandmother through your snapchat and podcast. She was one of those women that you can just tell was amazing from the inside out. I love that you have these amazing pictures to keep as a forever memento and reminder of her. xx

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  16. Kollin

    Lauryn – I’m in tears reading this. The Nanz was just the best. I just was thinking to myself last night where has she been on snap/your blog.. and I woke up to this. I’m so so sorry for you and your family. Stay strong – she wouldn’t want you to be sad. XO.

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  17. Anita

    I’m so sorry for your family’s loss. I am tearing up as I’m writing this. Your speech was beautiful. It seemed like she lived life to the fullest with no regrets and you can’t help but feel at peace knowing that.
    I didn’t get to spend the last moments with my grandmother.
    My grandmother died over a decade and I missed her every single effin day for many years that’s how much it hurt. I’ve never cried over anyone like I did for her. I still miss her. You will need a lot of time to grieve so allow yourself as much time as you need. We <3 you. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  18. Kayla King

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Lauryn! I was reading this after class during my lunch break & teared up a little bit. It must’ve been so hard for you to write this post. :/

    She was a total star & I’m glad I got to meet her through TSC. <3

    ~Kayla

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  19. Nikki

    Sending so much love and prayers to you and your family, Lauryn! I will always remember the Nanz, she’s the most badass, inspiring, graceful woman who really showed me that even if you’re getting older, you can still be a sex kitten and have so much fun. Thank you for sharing this with all of us and my deepest condolences.

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  20. Bree

    I am so sorry for your family’s loss Lauryn.

    I know it feels like it will never be over and you will never get out of this dark hole, but it will get better. And now you have your sweet baby nephew to love.

    Sending you love and strength from Germany. xo

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  21. Emma

    What a beautiful tribute – so much love. The Nanz was so clearly a class act. I hope one day all your videos and recordings of her that you’ve made for the blog are some comfort x

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  22. Ashley

    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. It is amazing how close you were to your grandmother. Stay strong in this difficult time. 💖

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  23. leslie

    you made all of your TSC readers feel like we knew the Nanz personally… as such, we are hurting with you. what an amazing woman she was! sorry for your loss.

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  24. Melanie

    I loved reading about the Nanz and seeing her on your snapchat. I was actually just thinking a couple of weeks ago how it had been a while since she was on. You were always so sweet with her and I’m sure she is looking down on you with some oversized sunnies and a glass of rose! Thinking of you and your family!

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  25. Rachel

    Lauryn, I am so sorry for your loss! I’ve been reading your blog so long I felt like I knew her and my favourite Him and Her podcast is the one with her. I’m sending loving vibes your way!

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  26. Andrea

    I am so sorry for your loss. I always loved reading about the Nanz (she reminded me of my grandma). Losing my grandma was devastating too, she was my rock, friend and would light up the room. It takes time but you will be able to smile at memories you have with her. Know she isn’t gone, but is enjoying a glass of champagne with sunglasses on right now with new and old friends 😊

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  27. Jenny

    I’m so sorry for your loss Lauryn. I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I always enjoyed all of her involvement in the blog and how cool now you will have those memories, pictures and videos together. Take all the time in the world you need to grieve, your readers will still be here 🙂

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  28. Laura

    I just wanted to thank you for sharing this with all of us and say that my heart goes out to you, Lauryn! You write so beautifully, and you portrayed your lovely Nanz in the most glimmering, gorgeous, shining light on this blog. What a blessing to have such love in your life! I am so sorry for your loss but so thankful that you are brave enough to share so candidly. Just know that this post certainly touched and helped so many of your readers who have gone through or are going through something similar. You are a light!

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  29. Rach

    Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I cried reading this because even though I’ve never met either of you, I could just tell even through videos, posts, snapchat, etc. how much she meant to you and how special your relationship was. She really knew how to live life to the fullest, which is an amazing example for anyone at any age. Thank you for letting us get to know her – she was really fabulous. I am so sorry for your loss

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  30. Michelle

    Lauryn,

    I am so sorry about The Nanz.. I loved all your posts/snapchats of her. You are so lucky you made her so happy in the final years of her life. She will be with you always. Stay strong beautiful <3

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  31. Erin Cusack

    Oh I am so, so sorry to hear this. As much as I’m sure you’re feeling this loss it is wonderful that you have these great memories documented with her, I’m sure you will treasure them for the rest of your life. Chessy and cliche as it may sound- sending you love and peace, and I will be hugging my loved ones a little tighter today in honor of The Nanz.

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  32. Sophie Burgess

    What a beautiful post. So, so sorry to hear of her passing. No words anyone has will be the right ones, but I think its beautiful that you’ve honoured her in such a special way. In the same way that by reading your blog I feel I know you, I felt I knew the Nanz, and what a speical lady she was I can’t even begin to imagine. Sending thoughts and happiness your way. Thank you for sharing that special part of your life with us all.

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  33. Nicole Jahns

    This post nearly made me cry… I’m so sorry for your loss Lauryn. The relationship you had with your grandma seemed so so special, I can’t begin to imagine what dealing with that must be like for you and your family. <333

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  34. abs

    very sad. my heart hurts for you. what a touching tribute and memorial. i always loved a post with the nanz. i am sure she is tickled by this tribute up in heaven.

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  35. Cynthia

    Lauryn so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. You two had a special relationship and seeing her on your snapchat always made me laugh!
    Reminded me of my own grandma who was also called Nana and named Mary. My Nana was a little old English lady who wore tea cup printed turtlenecks, lengths of gold chain, and always always red nailpolish and red lipstick. She called our childhood home every night to say goodnight to us.

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  36. Sarah Drew

    I’m so sorry for the incredible loss you’re going through, Lauryn. I’ve loved getting to know The Nanz through your posts, her bright personality and making friends everywhere reminds me so much of my Grandma who passed away two years ago. Thank you for sharing her with us!

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  37. Trista Granberry

    Oh, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing this and sharing a part of you. The posts on makeup, fashion, body, realness, etc are all fun, but this is IT. As a reader, I think we all wait for fun content and love to be entertained and enlightened, but thank you so much for sharing such a real post….well, and for sharing The Nanz with us. She was a hoot and I loved the posts with her and the podcast as well. Sending love and healing……

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  38. Jessica

    Lauryn, THANK YOU for sharing your beautiful, loving, one-of-a-kind best friend with us. 🙂 I have adored getting to “know” her on your blog the last year and I am so, so sorry for your loss. I’ll make this short as there aren’t any words to make things better during times like these. Only sweet memories, beautiful pictures and a pretty drink in honor of The Nanz. I’ll be spending my morning listening to Bossanova in support of you and in honor of one of the shiniest new angels in heaven. Lots of love to you!!

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  39. Ashley

    Tearing up over here. Your Nanz was a beautiful and spunky woman, and it has been a joy watching your memories with her on The Skinny Confidential. For that, I want to thank you for sharing them with us. My relationship with my grandmother is very similar so I can relate to how you must be feeling but know we are all here for you!

    Sending you lots of love and hugs Lauryn!

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  40. Lauren

    Lauryn I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
    I too recently lost my grandmother and it is difficult enough to deal with my own grief, let alone watching my father’s heartbreak for the loss of his mother.
    I know that nothing we say can make you feel better, but I hope you feel the love from all of your readers. We love the Nanz and so many of us have taken her wise words to heart.

    “It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don’t want it to “not matter”. I don’t want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it.”
    Maybe you’ve already read this post, maybe not, but I’ll leave it here anyways http://www.tickld.com/x/ <3

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  41. Mary

    I’m so sorry, Lauryn. What a great piece you’ve done here. Made me tear up. She was such a light to the world, and I always loved reading about her. She’s definitely watching over you!!!

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  42. Colleen

    Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life and your family’s. Its so evidently clear how much love you had for your Grandma and how much she loved being a part of your life. She is an inspiration to living a happy, full life, to enjoy the simple (and extravagant!) thing. Much love to you and your family.

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  43. Delia

    I was genuinely shocked to read about your grandma’s passing. She was such a vibrant personality. You just think people like her will live forever. I’m so very sorry, Lauryn. I know the pain. I lost my grandmother unexpectedly in 2015. But like you, I remember her words and wisdom and I pick myself up and keep moving. You will carry her legacy forward as we all do for our loved ones who pass on. It’s our gift to them. Hang in there.

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  44. Cat

    I’m so sorry to hear this news Lauryn. It’s clear how much she meant to you, but she was also a favorite with us. I cried while reading your post it was so touching and I am really moved by the news of her passing. We all love you and are hear for you girl <3 And I really like your idea of celebrating her life. xo

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  45. Madison

    Oh my god this made me cry. Everyone loved her so much! I cannot even begin to imagine how you feel. I’ll be sending you positive happy good feely vibes non stop.

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  46. Aubrey

    I’m so sorry for your loss! Her episode on the podcast was literally my favorite, she was making me laugh the whole time. Thank you for sharing and sending extra love your way!! xxx Aubrey. <3

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  47. Chelsea Becker

    So sorry to hear this, Lauryn. What a gift she was to you and everyone she touched! I hope and know a woman like that goes on to inspire people around her for generations. Sending love, xx

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  48. Mackenzie

    So very sorry for your loss. Losing someone so near and dear to your heart is so painful, but she was clearly so cherished and loved by you (and you by her) that it makes those deep feelings of loss worthwhile — you lost a best friend which means that you also got to love a best friend. Thinking of you <3

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  49. Lauren

    I am so sorry for your loss Lauryn. Please don’t forget that although not here in person, she is always with you, cheering you on! Thinking of you xoxo

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  50. Sarah

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I also lost my grandmother four weeks ago (she was 99 and I hope I’ve got her genes!). Right now in my grieving process I alternate between feeling sad and fondly remembering my grandmother and how she lived her life. She was such a great example of so many things to me and it seems like the Nanz was one for you too. Your tribute to her is beautiful 🙂

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  51. Amanda

    This made me cry also. I am so so sorry for your loss 🙁 you had such a special bond and relationship! Cherish it xoxo

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  52. Traci

    My heart breaks for your loss…they don’t make them like The Nanz anymore — what a special, classy lady.
    Sending you and your family love & light xo

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  53. Kristen

    So sorry to hear about your loss Lauryn! I have listened to the podcast episode she was on multiple times just to hear her wisdom (: It was clear how much she loved you and Michael and being a part of the TSC community! Much love and good vibes your way xx

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  54. Katrina

    I am so very sorry for your loss Lauryn. I hope you and your family are able to take time to care for your broken hearts. Sending wishes of comfort and love. xoxox

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  55. Heather

    This was beautiful. My thoughts are with you and your family. Your love for her was so obvious and her love for life was so beautiful. This inspired me to call my grandma today and tell her how much I love her. Thank you for sharing.

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  56. Lindsey W.

    Lauryn,

    Words cannot express losing a grandparent. I teared up (yes, at the office lol) reading this. I lost my grandma when I was in high school and it’s by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. But like you said, she lives on. There will always be little snippets of items that remind you of her, but more than that, they’re signs from her. She was so proud of you–and I’m sure she’s smiling down on you for how strong you’ve been through this all. It gets a little easier everyday, but definitely take your time to grieve. Love you girl!

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  57. Jasmine Towles

    Lauyrn, I am so sorry for your loss. The nanz was a special lady and we are so blessed we got to see not only your special relationship but also some special grandma love for those of us that don’t have that. I loved watching her make egg salad and decorate flowers. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  58. Jk

    What a beautiful angel you have watching over you and your family! Loved getting to know her through the blog and the podcast – thank you for sharing her! God bless you and your family during this difficult time. ❤️

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  59. Deana_J

    I am so sorry for your loss. The Nanz reminded me so much of my great-aunt who passed away years ago. My Aunt Thelma was like a grandmother to me since my mom’s mother passed when she was a little girl. She would hang with her girlfriends and give me all the skincare secrets and tips. She loved to shop and would buy the same outfit twice, forgetting she already had bought it. Reading this post brought back the memories of her and the fabulous times we had together. Just know that The Nanz loves you very much and the memories you two made will always be with you!

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  60. Chandler

    Lauryn I can’t imagine what you must be going through with the loss of your best friend and grandma. From reading your blog for the past few years I have grown to love the Nanz. Your words, the video made me cry and made me realize that I will be going through something like this soon as my own grandma isn’t doing well. But how you’ve handled it is amazing and her legacy will always be remembered. The Nanz was a gem and she will be the most beautiful and loving angel <3 I will forever miss her

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  61. Shealyn

    I am SO sorry for your loss! It made me so happy to see that you had such a great relationship with her because that is so important. I lost my Grandad in June, and it has been one of the most devastating things for our family, my grandparents were inseparable for 60 years until the day of his passing. We all got tattoos to remember him by (even GranGran, she now wants to get a second tattoo of a heart with his name Jim in the middle!) Just know that the memories that you have made with her will stay with you forever

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  62. Angeline

    Lauryn and Michael, I am so sorry for your tremendous loss. Reading this really hit close to home as I too lost my grandmother and my best friend a few short months ago. There’s nothing anyone can say to take your pain away, and it will never really go away, but it will get easier. I’ve felt my grandmother’s spirit on many occasions since then and I have to say, it’s a magical feeling to know she’s with you and always watching over you. So take an extra deep breath while you watch the sunset tonight and feel her shining down on you! All my love xoxo – Angeline

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  63. Lauren

    Lauryn, I’m so sad to hear of the passing of The Nanz. She was truly a wonderful person and her spunk was definitely seen though your blog & your social media. She will live on in you because of the stories you have told. I know how devestating it is to lose a family member and it will take time for you to feel better. The sadness will always be there, but soon it will be overcome with joy when you think of your memories with her. I’ll be praying for you and your family. xo

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  64. Shannon

    Oh my goodness. Started tearing up immediately after seeing this. She was truly special and the incredible bond between you two was undeniable. She touched us all. Sending you all the love and hugs Lauryn.

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  65. Chelsea Gest

    SHE IS A QUEEN. I’m so touched by the relationship you two shared. Thank you for loving The Nanz so well and for letting us love her, too.

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  66. Melanie

    I cried throughout this entire beautiful tribute. I am SO sorry of your loss. Sending lots of love. XO

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  67. sarah

    i am so sorry lauryn. i am fighting back tears as i write this. my grandma is not doing well. it is the hardest thing. they are truly so special. xo

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  68. Shannon

    Oh my goodness, Lauryn, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine and just sending you the biggest virtual hug I can muster. I’ll admit, this post made me cry this morning. She truly was a delight and I am so glad you were able to share her with your readers. It’s amazing how the internet can just connect people and souls and not to sound cliche but it sounds like Rachel was now put in your life for a reason & sense of comfort, as well as be a source of cherished memories. As someone who is very close to her grandmother (& boy, she is just as sassy!), this really resonated with me and a reminder to call her as much as I can. Some of my all time favourite TSC posts were hers & some of her advice on life I’ve really kept close to my heart. Thank you again for sharing with us her light – this post was very beautifully written and your speech really captured her essence & energy. Thinking of you and sending you so much love I could possibly gather. xx Shannon

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  69. Alex Flores

    Lauryn, I’m so sorry for your loss. You were such a wonderful grand-daughter, she was so lucky to have you!!! You both are so inspiring, I know you will carry her with you every where you go. All my love!

    Alex

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  70. Jen M.

    I could feel her spirit through this blog, I can’t imagine what a force she was in real life. I hope that when I’m her age, I have that same zest for life. She was extremely special and I’m so sorry you’re going through this… I will drink some champagne for her this weekend <3

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  71. Tiffany McGoff

    i am at work on my lunch break and my heart just aches for you. Tears running down my face and I’m so sad for you and your family. Death, there really are no words for a moment like this, but to know that you loved her and she loved you should bring comfort to you in the moments you need her most and when you look up at the stars or the sun, she will be shining brightly for you. Reading this just made me appreciate life so much as it is evident she LIVED! and she LIVED well! Much love to you darling,

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  72. Melissa Howie

    Oh Lauryn, I am so sorry for your loss. I loved reading posts, seeing Snaps and hearing her on the podcast! It’s clear where you got your sense of humor from. Remember the good times and continue making her proud.

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  73. Tara

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I loved the posts and snaps that involved her. She sounds like she was a lovely person.

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  74. Lauren

    Bring in the water works, this brought me to absolute tears! Wow, I am so sorry Lauryn. I absolutely loved the Nanz and my heart hurts so heavy for you and your family. She was such A STAR.

    Much Love,

    Lauren

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  75. Adrianna Taeschler

    I am so sorry for your loss Lauryn. This made me cry! Having lost a grandparent who was basically another parent to me, I know the pain and suffering you are going through.

    The Nanz was truly special and I loved all of her posts with you on the blog. I laughed with you guys when she was on the Podcast and felt like she was my grandma with her advice, tips and tricks. Thank you for sharing this with us as I can imagine it was extremely difficult. This tribute to her is incredible and I know she would have loved it.

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  76. Laura

    I always thought your relationship was very unique and touching. You were SO lucky to have such a fun and hip grandma. She lives on in you and the way she impacted your life and personality.

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  77. Kailee Steward

    Love you Lauryn! Sending you and your family big big love and strenght! My grandma was my best friend too. I know she’s with me everyday just like The Nanz is with you! Thank you for sharing this beautiful post to honor her beauty, wit, vibrance, and overall badassness! Much love sister!

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  78. Caitlin Pickett

    Oh my gosh, I am SHOCKED by this news. And so sorry and sad for you Lauryn! I’ve been following your blog forever and really could feel the depth and close bond you two had. My deepest condolences girl xoxo

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  79. Jaclyn

    I’m so very sorry to hear about your grandma’s passing. I was just thinking of her last night and wondering why she hadn’t made a chic appearance on your blog or Snapchat. Losing someone you love is the hardest thing we have to deal with, and it hurts–a lot. Surround yourself with people you love, cry, smile at the good times you shared. You were very lucky to have her be part of your life for so many years. I lost my grandparents at a young age and still think about them every day.

    Just remember: She’ll always be with you.

    Big Hugs,
    Jaclyn

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  80. Judy

    I am so so sorry! I loved the Nanz. When my grandmother passed away it was so hard. I was really close to her too. My thoughts and prayers are going out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing the Nanz’s light and joy with your readers and for allowing us to learn from her wisdom.

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  81. Kelsey

    I am so sorry for you, Lauryn. I can’t even imagine how that feels, and my heart is with you. I didn’t know your grandma personally, but I felt like I did through this blog, and she was definitely a one of a kind, amazing woman. Thank you for sharing this, and her, with us, and I give my deepest condolences. <3

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  82. Virginia

    Oh Lauryn I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m so thankful you shared her with us 🙂 What a beautiful magical soul.
    Sending so much love your way <3 <3

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  83. Aubrey

    Crying at my work desk right now. My heart goes out for you and hurts for yours. I too have lost my grandmother and I was also very close to her. Your heart can’t heal completely but as time goes on it will become easier to laugh and smile at the memories. She is watching over you now so take comfort in the fact that she is always with you. Thank you for sharing her with us. Sending hugs and so much love your way.

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  84. Kendall

    what an angel you gained <3 my heart hurts for you but sending all the love + light your way.

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  85. kristen

    awww i msged you on snapchat but i’ll leave one more here … i just watched the video and she was honestly the coolest grandma ever! i love her outfits, her sunnies, her in your striped top!! I’m sorry for the loss in your family especially one so great, and even though she is not physically here with you anymore, she will always be with you<3!

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  86. Amanda

    This makes my heart hurt 🙁 I’m so sorry for your loss. You two were lucky to have each other. You can tell how proud she was of you.

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  87. Ky

    Praying for you and your family Lauryn. The Nanz was truly so special and such a light. It’s amazing how much her outgoing personality, spunk and love for you shined through your site & podcasts. I recently lost my mom, who like the Nanz was my best friend. A friend gifted me a journal & the book “When Will I Stop Hurting?” (by June Kolf) and it was one of the only things that helped – I still go back and reread it often. The book is pretty straightforward and doesn’t sugar coat anything, which I loved.

    I am so sorry that you’re experiencing this Lauryn. Thank you for sharing The Nanz with all of us and introducing us to a truly amazing lady, sending so much love your way <3

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  88. peggy curry

    Oh Lauryn, As you know, my heart goes out to you and your family! You did an amazing job in this tribute! My eyes cry for you and all the family. With a heavy heart, I say I am so sorry for your loss, and look forward to hug you in person, soon. She WAS an amazing lady! YOU did so good having her in your life, a gift to you both that will now remain forever and ever. I love you Lu! xoxo Big Peg Hugs! xoxo

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  89. Caitlyn McCartney

    Lauryn, I’m so sad to hear about your loss! This post is a beautiful tribute to The Nanz. Xo

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  90. Lucy

    My mom was my best friend in the whole world and she passed away from cancer two years ago. I know no one can know or understand exactly what you’re going through but I do know just how devastating this is for you. Your love for your grandma was so obviously apparent through your blog and Snapchats and her love for you was just as deep. Know that there is so much love in your life through Michael, your family and friends and even the readers of your blog. Nothing I can say can make this time easier for you to go through but I’m sure you’re appreciating every moment you had with The Nanz. I know all of us readers are happy we got a few moments shared with us! So thank you so much for bringing her sass onto TSC, I loved every minute. And my one piece of advice for grieving is to do what feels right for you and don’t let anyone else tell you how or what you should be going through (though I’m sure you’re doing this already!!) So much love ❤️

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  91. Taylor Winkelmeyer

    I am so incredibly sorry to you and your family, Lauryn. I hope you can get through this knowing and remembering the wonderful woman your Nanz was. She will me missed. Praying for you and your family. ♡
    xx Taylor

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  92. Megan

    I am struggling to even find words, I just can’t believe it. This post has me in tears. Lauryn. I am just so sorry. My heart breaks for you and your family. The two of you had such a sweet, special relationship- two peas in a pod. I have been reading your blog for years and I still remember when I was introduced to The Nanz in a post describing the two of you enjoying grilled peaches, gruyere and prosciutto out on the deck on a Summers night (and talking about hating bleu cheese haha). This memory along with dozens of others since have showed us how much the two of you have in common including your adoration for one another. It was always so obvious how proud she was of you. Despite the difference in age, you two always seemed like sisters or best friends, bringing out the best in each other. She was truly a one of a kind, an inspiration to us all. You mentioned in your speech how she was the brightest light in your life, and while I didn’t know her personally, I feel certain that she felt this way about you as well. She was so lucky to have you.

    I truly cannot comprehend how difficult this must be but I can only imagine the strength and difficulty it must take to get out of bed everyday and put on a brave face to all of us and just make it through each day. And on top of it all, to write this post, I can only imagine how tough this must be. I know you probably feel a lot of pressure to be perfect and happy all the time as a blogger, but know that its okay to not be okay. In sharing this I’m sure you will help a lot of others through similar struggles. Like many readers I knew something was going on because you had mentioned it earlier, but never did I imagine that it would be something this awful. I hope that in sharing this with us you can feel a small sense of relief in knowing that we understand if you need time away to grieve.

    Sending all my love to you, Michael, the chihuahuas and your whole family. Try to take comfort in knowing that she had a full life, and knowing that you were such an important part of it.

    Love Megan x

    PS. The photos and the video in this post are so beautiful.

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  93. Hannah

    Lauryn, so sorry for your loss! It was so much fun to watch and listen to you and the Nanz interact (blog and podcast). She seemed like such a positive influence and she had some wonderful information that she shared with your readers. Sending love and prayers to you and your family!
    Hannah

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  94. Megan Richford

    Oh, Lauryn… I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart and condolences are with you and your family during this difficult time. I think so many people were able to fall in love with her, especially from a readers perspective, was because we can see so much of her in you. You both share such an endearing personality and a warm friendly spirit. Stay strong. xx

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  95. Kay

    This really brought tears to my eyes. I fell in love with The Nanz immediately when I first read about her. I lost my grandma years ago, and it still hurts to this day. It’s crazy how years go by, but under certain circumstances, you find yourself wanting to call them up and tell them. I’m really sorry for your loss, Lauryn. But thank you for sharing and letting us know. It’s such a shame that you, and all of your fans, have lost such an amazing lady. I feel deeply for you and am sending so much love your way.

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  96. Kristen barnes

    I’m so sorry for your loss Lauryn. My grandma is my best friend aswell and just reading your post I was in tears. sending love from Toronto, Canada xo

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  97. Ashley Woods

    Lauryn,
    I feel for you so much. I didn’t know your grandma, but I can barely type this without crying, the Nanz was so much fun and such an inspiration to read about and then listen to on the podcast. She just seemed like she knew what life was really about and she had fun doing it too! Thank you for sharing such an amazing part of your life. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  98. Lauren

    This was the most amazing post I have ever read. I have been a reader for 2 years and when I saw your Instagram today, I immediately bursted into tears. I send my deepest condolences to you & your family. Although this time is terrible, you will not lose the brightness that you exude through everything that you do.

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  99. Breanne

    Wow, you are so strong for sharing this with all of us and I am so sorry for your loss. I cant imagine what you’re going through. The Nanz was an absolutely beautiful person and I am so happy that you were able to share her with us. Sending love and prayers your way.

    XX

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  100. Erika Dellatorre

    Oh my goodness I CRIED reading this. My heart aches for you, but you have such a positive attitude. She is def smiling with pride from above. Remember: always with you, in you heart. Much love xoxoxo<3

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  101. Sara

    Lauryn, I am so, so sorry, and deeply sadden for you all. I was just thinking about The Nanz the other day… as I was missing her on snap & the blog. She seemed like such an amazing women and from what I can tell, amazing doesn’t do enough justice. Thank you for sharing so much of her with us all! Sending lots of love, hugs and thoughts. XO

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  102. Arianna

    I am so sorry for your loss. I always loved hearing about The Nanz, I lost my own grandmother nearly a year ago and the two of them seemed so similar in my mind. Always be grateful you have those memories. Much love!

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  103. Virjinia

    Oh Lauryn, this post moved me to tears and I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. You and your family are in my prayers. She definitely brought joy to so many people.

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  104. Claire

    I just lost my grandpa 2 weeks ago so I get it. It’s a rough time. Sending good vibes your way babe. <3. I loved all your posts with the nanz. She was the cutest!

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  105. Saraly S.

    My heart sank when I saw your post on IG. I loved seeing your posts that featured her. Her energy was contagious ((even through a computer screen)). The bond you two shared is admirable! And like you said, you are so fortunate to have been able to document so many great memories with her.
    Sending you a big hug. xo

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  106. Re

    I feel heartbroken for you. I so loved all your posts with your grandma because I love my grandma so much too and am so close to her as well. Her nickname is Yans which rhymes with Nanz! I cried really hard thinking of your loss, and remembering when I lost my grandpa and can not and do not want to imagine a world without my grandma in it. Oh Lauryn you sweet lady, doing all you’re doing in the midst of grieving. Grief is hard because it comes and goes and can hit in waves. I kept thinking for someone who is so healthy you have been getting sick a lot, but you were grieving. Those precious memories are everything. Thats what I held on to when my grandpa passed and then in a way it felt like he was still with me. Def give yourself time and space to let down and let go so you can heal your heart. I will be making her spiced nuts this fall season in honor of her sweet memory! God bless you and your family.

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  107. Stacey

    I’m so sorry for you and your family’s loss. Thank you Lauryn for sharing her with us.

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  108. Amanda Weitzel

    Sending you all the love that I can via TSC <3 Grandma's are the best bestfriends, greatest link to our past, the most amazing influence and teacher, and simply SO loving and giving! I can see so much of her in you! Thank you for sharing these beautiful moments. They mean so much to us all. We love you and the Nanz forever <3 xoxo

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  109. Shawn

    Loved me some Nanz. What a beautiful post! These pictures capture everything she was! She was one of my FAV people and clients! I will always cherish my Wednesdays at Drybar with her. Love u xx

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  110. Sam Goldberg

    I’m so sorry for your loss Lauryn. The Nanz’s positive and sassy spirit will live on <3 It's amazing to see how genuinely happy she made you and everyone she came into contact with. XO

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  111. Lindsay

    I watched and read as tears fell from my eyes while a smile remained on my face. What a beauty she was. As are you! There is something so special about a grandmothers love. Irreplaceable. TSC readers loved the Nanz and will miss her presence on snap chat, etc. May the memories you’ve created last a lifetime! Rest in paradise Nanz! There’s no question that there is a lot more laughter up there since you’ve joined!

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  112. Karina

    Barely started following you on social media/ TSC this year and I only got a glimpse of what your grandma was like. I did however feel like she resembled my grandma in many ways & I’m glad I got to learn about her on the last podcast she was in. She was a total doll and I wish I could’ve ran into her in San Diego! I truly enjoyed the advice she gave and took it all to heart. My thoughts & prayers are with your family !

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  113. Laura

    Your tribute to her was so beautiful. You could see what a special bond you two had and how much love was shared. Sending so much ❤️ to you and your family.

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  114. Shan

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! I got such a kick out of the Nanz. Makes me want to go home and spend time with my grandparents.

    Thanks for keeping it real!

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  115. Kristen

    She would have loved this post, it was so touching. I loved every moment you shared with us and the Nanz- on the blog, snapchat or podcast. I can’t even imagine how you’re feeling and I’m so sorry for your loss. ❤️

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  116. Amanda

    I’ve followed your blog from the beginning and I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I feel like I know you personally from your blog and your advice is the main reason I finally made the switch from a desk job to teaching barre now. So, so sorry Lauryn.

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  117. Brittney

    I have been a fan of the TSC for over 5 years. You’ve helped me get through some really tough times. Although I don’t know you personally my heart goes out to you and your family. The nanz was a gem. Keep your memories close. Stay strong 💕

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  118. Kari

    What a beautiful tribute! There is no doubt her spirit will live on through the love and memories that you have to cherish! Praying you feel very loved and supported during this difficult time!

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  119. Rachel

    Beautiful post lauryn. So sorry for the loss of a beautiful soul, but it sounds like she lived life
    To the fullest. She is no doubt enjoying her after party 😉
    How blessed you are to have had her. Xo

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  120. Akansha Agrawal

    I took my normal break at work to read TSC and I saw this post and my heart sank. Seriously Lauren this post almost had me in tears at my desk at work so I can’t even start to imagine what you are going through.

    Please take time for yourself and know that your readers are here whenever you need us <3. So much love for you!

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  121. Kate

    Your tribute to your grandmother made me cry, as it brought back all the emotion of when mine passed. She too was one of my closest friends.

    “They lived and laughed and loved and left”. – James Joyce

    And the world will never be the same.

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  122. Lexi Crawford

    So sorry for your loss lauryn. She was such a bright light on your blog. My heart is with you and your family. I lost my Grammy 2 years ago and Miss her everyday. It is so special to have a grandma that you connect with and can turn to. She is shining down from heaven and with you everyday! I know my Grammy is always a part of me 🙂

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  123. Gabriella Gagliani

    Lauryn, I am so sorry for your loss, learning this made my heart ache for you. I also just recently lost a grandparent and truly understand how difficult it can be. But this post is so beautiful, it brought me to tears. I hope you realize how many people’s lives you touch every day. Your blog and podcast are what get me through my days <3

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  124. Emily

    I can’t imagine what you are going through, I was crying through the whole post. This is so beautifully written. Thanks for sharing your Nanz with us, she truly was a shining light. Thinking of you in this difficult time xoxo

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  125. Tracy

    She was absolutely beautiful and I loved the relationship you guys had. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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  126. Lyndsay

    Tears in my eyes while I reading this this morning. I have been thinking about you ever since!! What a gem she was and what a special relationship you shared. She will always be with you. Thank you SO much for sharing her with us. Every blessing. XOXO

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  127. Jessica

    Lauryn-

    I am absolutely heartbroken hearing about The Nanz. My love and thoughts are with you and your family. She was an incredible spirit and added so much fun, life and perspective on The Skinny Confidential. She was truly an honorary Kitty Kat and a was such an incredible spirit. May your memories bring so much comfort during this time. Sending you so much love and light! 💗

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  128. Tamara

    My grandma suffered for more than 2 years before she finally rested… Sending you lots of love to you and your family! And hopefully the Nanz is resting in piece! <3

    XoXo,

    Tamara – LoveofMode.com

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  129. Layla K.

    I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing her with us. She is such an incredible, classy, one-of-a-kind woman.

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  130. Jennifer Lahotski

    Lauryn – I just tears up watching that tribute vid. You have one hell of an angel watching over you. She was fabulous!!! Sending you a hug and a lotta love.

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  131. Chrissy

    This was such a touching tribute, I got teary reading this. I can’t imagine what you are going through and am so, so sorry for your loss.
    The Nanz is a gorgeous inspiration and her memory will live on through all the countless lives she touched. She was a remarkable, one-of-a-kind woman.
    Take care <3

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  132. Maddie

    Oh, Lauryn! This was such a beautiful post, I’m crying. I have a pretty close relationship with my paternal grandma too, despite a language barrier & her living in a different country. I am so sorry for your loss, she was absolutely beautiful. I’m sure that you making an effort to keep up with her and make time to hang out meant the world to her — my grandma tells me how grateful she is for our relationship every time we speak. I’m going to call her more often now, because of this post. Thank you for sharing & know that you and your family are in my thoughts ❤️.

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  133. Jordan @ The Balanced Blonde

    Lauryn this post was amazing. So beyond inspired by your strength in sharing your words and those GORGEOUS photos & video with us. I will probably watch that video 10 more times- it captures her personality and the bond between the two of you so beautifully. Your Nanz was a wonderful woman with the best, best advice — that will live on in all of us. <3 XO, always

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  134. Deanna

    Sending you lots of love Lauryn, and I know the Nanz is so proud of everything you’ve accomplished. She will be with you and live on always on your heart. <3

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  135. Cynthia

    Aww! This was hard to read, I had no idea and I”m sure no one else did either… she was so awesome, and I loved your latest podcast with her. Grandparents are the hardest to lose because there is such a bond there. I know she loved you to pieces, and your love shines through too!
    xoxo,
    Cynthia

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  136. Arielle

    This is heartbreaking and beautifully written – I’m sure it was difficult to do. I hope you and your family can find comfort in each other through this, your nan was such a lovely person and now she lives through you ☺️

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  137. Olivia

    My heart goes out to you, I’m so sorry for your loss. She was definitely a star & will be greatly missed <3

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  138. Madeleine

    Oh what sad news! I was just listening to the podcast with The Nanz last week and was absorbing every little bit of advice she was giving. Sending you lots of love, positive feel good feelings and happiness for the future. Loss is hard. Much love xx

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  139. Shivneer

    I am so sorry for your lose Lauryn. She definitely was very special and brought some much joy and humor to the blog. You definitely carry those traits. My thoughts and condolences go out to you and your family.

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  140. Viktoria

    Dearest Lauryn,
    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know that there are days now when you can only cry and think it will never get better, but try to take comfort from the fact that you and The Nanz had an incredibly special, strong, beautiful relationship that is very rare and for this you must smile. I hope this can give you comfort in these difficult times. Sending you lots of love, Viktoria

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  141. Tish

    Lauryn,
    My heart goes out to you. What a beautiful tribute to your grandmother. I understand the void and sadness that you are feeling. You are in my thoughts.

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  142. Tara

    Oh man, this is so real and so raw. Thank you so much for sharing, and I sincerely hope the memories are bringing you peace.

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  143. Elvira

    I was sooooo sad to hear of her passing…..What a beautiful tribute for a beautiful, vibrant woman and soul… What a bright light! Be strong, Lauryn… She will always be part of you….My sympathies to you and your family….We’ll all miss her :-(… .xoxo

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  144. Monique

    Such a beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul.💌 My heart aches for you and your family. You have shown INCREDIBLE strength through a time of devastating loss, and sadness. We’re all with you on spirit Lauryn, we love you!💋

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  145. Jessica

    OMG Lauryn I’m so sorry for you loss. Although I had never met the Nanz, she was a hip & cool lady from what was posted on your blog, youtube page, and snapchat. Thank you for sharing this personal information with The Skinny Confidential community. We’re behind you 100%. God Bless and just remember all the good times you had with the Nanz.

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  146. Kim

    Lauryn, thank you for sharing this personal post. I was one of those that loved The Nanz through your blog. Thank you for letting us get to know her and see how wonderful life can be at any age. She’ll be with you always through all of the many words you shared and hours you spent with her. I still dream now of having present-day conversations with my Nanz even though I lost her several years ago. So somehow she’s still giving me advice. She must have been immensely proud of you, and it was always clear how much she loved you.

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  147. Holly

    What a beautiful tribute to The Nanz. She is such a light and I know she is looking at your from heaven with her gold oversized glasses smiling and is so proud of you and what you did. The bond you guys share is so special and thank you for showing your readers <3 Sending lots of love.

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  148. Natasha

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Lauryn. Your grandma seemed like such an incredible spirit. I am very close with my grandma as well so it was nice to see how close you two were. Big hugs and positive energy to you and your family. xox

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  149. Katie

    Seriously crying right now! You two had such a special relationship. It was a beautiful reminder to cherish the family that we have around us <3 I am so sorry for your loss but it seems like The Nanz instilled a strength in you that will help you through this very sad loss.

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  150. Einat

    Oh, Lauryn! My heart aches for you…I have definitely noticed something when you were receiving lots of flowers or other small gifts from friends and loved ones. I hoped everything was OK. Thank you for sharing this with us, I know it can’t be easy. I absolutely loved The Nanz but mostly loved your relationship with her. It was beautiful and you have so many captured memories you are able to look back on. Sending you love & light during this time.

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  151. Laura

    Oh Lauryn, I am so very sorry for your loss. I know just how near and dear The Nanz was to you. I was so saddened to read this post. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for bringing us The Nanz. She was one very cool and hip lady. xoxo

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  152. Laura

    I think of her advice to “get outside yourself” when you’re feeling down… every time I’m feeling down. That really stuck with me. Thank you for sharing her with us.

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  153. Sara Kelsey

    I am so terribly sad to hear this. My heart breaks for you, Lauryn. My grandma and I are the same way, best friends, she’s the person I call when I need help most, she’s the person I want to celebrate with. She’s in her 80s now, and I know this day is coming, and I can’t imagine what I’ll do when it does. I know there are probably no words that will help, but your grandma was so loved by so many and I hope that gives you and your family some comfort. Wishing you the best as you navigate this time.

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  154. Larissa Novello

    Oh my god, Lauryn! I am SO sorry for you and for everyone that loved here. You guys are lucky to have met someone like her, to have her in your life, to have so many memories, so many lessons…..
    I loved her- the photos, the podcast, the blog posts, the snaps…. I am going to miss here too, but I am glad you were able to show the world how IT IS possible to be cool when you are on your eighties. She is an inspiration and thanks for sharing it.
    I am going to pray for you and all of her friends&families tonight.
    Stay strong, babe! You’re a badass

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  155. Chanelle Jepson

    I’ve followed you for years now. My life changed when I accepted a holistic approach to my health. It changed my career path to now I formulate holistically minded nutritional products. In my journey I stumbled across The Skinny Confidential. Found a place where being healthy is hip, this may not surprise you but it FOR SURE hasn’t always been cool. I struggled with family and friends health shaming me. Your blog helped me push that crap aside, as well as the crap I was eating and focus on healing my body from the inside.

    Your Nanz was a gem, and as I’ve become more and more attached to this blog, your life, I also became attached to her and even referenced her the other day in casual conversation as if I knew her. Thank you for opening up to your readers. For sharing your life with us. It’s been a source of a lot of good for a lot of people.

    I’m sure you’ll keep the hustle up and continue to live a life that she absolutely respected and adored.

    My prayers and all my good vibes go to you and your family.

    With much love,
    Chanelle

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  156. Katie Mansour

    Lauryn, I am so sorry for you loss. I lost my great aunt, Adine, post Katrina and she meant the world to me much like the way the Nanz meant to you. I know she was a very special lady and she is looking down on you now. Family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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  157. Kayla Joy

    My heart aches reading this and I am sobbing. I cannot imagine what you are going through. The nanz always seemed like a genuinly happy person and she had this light in her that shinned. The relationship you two shared always fasinated me, you could really tell you were true friends. I will miss watching the chemistry you two share and her saying ‘hi snappy’, I always got a kick out of that one. You’re lucky to have had such a special, warm, loving and fascinating person in your life. I know I will miss the nanz so my heart aches for what you must be feeling. We (the skinny confidential readers) love you Lauryn and thank you for sharing this heart wrenching news with us, I know it musnt have been easy. You’ve brought all of us (the skinny confidential readers) together and graced us with the opportunity to get to know the nanz and witness the very special relationship you share. For that I thank you and truly feel blessed. We’re (the skinny confidential readers) are all hear for you Lauryn and understand that this will be an adjusement for you. We love you!!! And thank you again shared such a truly special relationship and having allowed us to get to know a truly exeptional women. ❤❤❤

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  158. Emily

    I lost my grandmother a month before my wedding last year. Needless to say, it was devastating. Especially since I knew she would appreciate every little detail I had planned for my wedding more than anyone! She was my biggest cheerleader and such a strong woman- very much like The Nanz. Something I did that was really special and you might want to consider is to wear a piece of her jewelry on your wedding day 🙂 I definitely shed some tears knowing she wasn’t there but looking down at the bracelet on my wrist from her collection made me smile. Take this time to cherish the moments you had with her and how close your relationship was!

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  159. Yoona

    So sorry to hear about your loss, Lauryn. You are lucky to have had such a loving, sweet person in your life. Thanks for sharing her with us.

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  160. Brandy McGuigan

    I’m So sorry for your loss Lauryn. What a treasure to have memories you can look back on forever. You will share that bond forever. Rest peacefully Nanz ❤️ Love you Lauren! 🙂

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  161. Ashley Gallardo

    The Nanz was truly fabulous. You are so blessed to have had the special relationship that you did with her. My grandmother and I were jut as close, but she passed when I was 16…now 29, I wish we could have had that adult friendship!

    She will be missed, but remembered by all!

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  162. Julie Miller

    Lauren, I am Julie Miller….Erica’s cousin that flew in from Atlanta for Erica’s 30th Birthday and you and I had time to visit there. I am so sorry to hear of you loss. Erica had told me about it weeks ago and you have been on my mind. Your Grandma sounds like she was just an “incredible” person and the relationship you two shared sounds totally “amazing”. I just wanted you to know you and she are in my thoughts and prayers. Loss is so hard. It takes so much time and yet there will always be that “void”. You are a very special person Lauren. I have always thought that about you. I am guessing you got that gene from your Grandma. In the midst of your sadness and grieving just remember that and how much you loved each other. She was a “shining star”. So are you. Lots of love and prayers coming your way. I am going to Facebook friend you so I can follow how you are doing. xoxoxo Julie

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  163. Suzi

    Lauryn sending you oceans of love at this sad time. I lost my dad this year and grief cuts you up big time. Big hug. Suzi

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  164. Kay

    My deepest sympathies are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing!

    I recently had a boyfriend pass away and know that whether we are prepared or unprepared losing a love, a friend and your third arm is never easy. Take care of yourself, keep her close to heart, look at shrubs, and know that you are loved my many all around the world. 💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️ Im glad to hear you made a new friend at the hospital through this. I recently found solstice in one of my BFs friends that I didn’t know who lives across the street from me! Ha. A friendship bloomed as one passed and the spirit of the Nanz will last forever

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  165. Lindsay

    Lauryn – I am so sorry for your loss. As a reader I feel that I have gotten to know the Nanz so well over the past few years. And loved her posts and snapchats the most! I always imagine my own grandmother would have been just like her if she had lived to her late 80s. Lots of love and prayers sent your way.

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  166. Amanda

    This post made me cry. Your grandma was a beautiful soul and I’m SO glad that you shared her beautiful light with us! My heart aches for you and your family, sending you lots of love and good. XO Amanda

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  167. Rhilee

    Sending all the love in the world your way Lauryn. I lost my Nana 5 years ago and it was the most devastating thing to happen in my life. She was also my best friend, super sassy, and would probably easily become best friends with The Nanz. Reading this post made me cry, but also reminded me of what I went through when I lost my Nana. Just remember she will always be with you, so proud of you, always loving you, and always always forever and always a part of you. xx

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  168. R Patra

    My heart just hurts a lot hearing the sad news.
    The Nanz has been a star throughout her life and shall always remain one.
    Thanks for making us know her.
    I have always felt her like my own grandmother talking to me.
    At this moment of grief , may God give you and your family all the strength to endure such a great loss.

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  169. Molly

    Oh my gosh, my heart breaks for you. I literally gasped when I read the first sentence, she was one of my favorite parts of your blog! Now you have a perfect guardian angel. Thinking of you<3

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  170. Terri Orban

    Omg I am crying! Lauryn and family I am so sorry for your loss. You had an amazing bond with your grandmother. I hope my daughter can be as close to my mother. She will always be with you look inward she’s in your heart.

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  171. Annika

    Lauryn, my heart goes out to you and your family. It was so evident the love that bonded you all. You were so lucky to have a grandmother who was also your best friend. Think of all the memories that you have shared <3 She is in a better place. Stay strong, Michael, your family & friends are there to get through this together. Thank you for letting the readers of TSC get to know her also – she brough so much light to many people's lives 🙂
    oxoxox

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  172. Kasie Chelanne

    Oh Lauryn, my heart goes out to you, your family and all of the Nanz’s friends. I’ve been a TSC reader for several years and always loved when the Nanz would make an appearance. My own grandparents have all passed away and your interactions with the Nanz, her wise words, and the fun you two had always made me smile and think of happy times with my own grandparents. I am so terribly sorry to hear of your loss and so thankful to the both of you for sharing her with the world.

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  173. Lynn Gill

    Lauren, so sad to hear this news, Nanz was the bomb! an incredibly inspiring and wonderful woman. We all share your sadness, take care. Lynnie (Australia)

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  174. Stephanie

    Lauryn, what a sweet tribute. The Nanz truly lit up the internet with her vibrant personality. I will never forget the advice she gave on your podcast about saving for the future and her biggest regret being the amount of money she spent on clothes. That really struck a chord with me, and I will always be thankful of you and the Nanz for such insightful tips and having a positive outlook on life, no matter what it throws at you.

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  175. Brikaeli Guzy

    The Nanz sparked something in my heart. I saw on snapchat the way she loved you and truly delighted in your presence and every time I’d pray to remember to be “that” grandma when it was my turn. What a gem, a dame, an old friend and a bright light. She left so many beautiful ways for you to remember her. I’m so sorry you have to miss her 💛

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  176. Kelly

    So sorry for this loss. Thank you so much for sharing the Nanz with us. She was truly an amazing lady. Your tribute to her was beautiful.

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  177. Krista

    Lauryn. This was so incredibly powerful I am sending you so much love.

    The nanz was and is truly a legend. She is an incredible woman who inspired us all.

    Thank you for always sharing your life with us readers. It’s a gift.

    Loving you.
    Krista

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  178. Veronica

    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. There isn’t much that can be said at a time like this, but I hope you find solace in knowing that such an incredible light existed not just in your life, but in so many others. That light never really goes away, even when you feel like it might be gone forever, you just need to look a little harder to find it. She’ll always be around you, I have no doubt about that. <3 Sending my love to you, your family, and the million other people who are suffereing from the loss of The Nanz. She and the relationship you two had, was one of my favorite parts of this blog. Thank you for sharing this vulnerability with us.

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  179. Sydney

    Oh, Lauryn. I am so so sorry for your loss. I am so incredibly close with my grandparents, and I can’t imagine the pain of losing them.

    What a beautiful tribute to her life. I’m so glad all your readers were able to “meet” her through your blog. My thoughts, prayers, and good vibes are heading your way.

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  180. julie

    Lauryn,
    What a beautifully written and heartfelt post. The love you and your Grandma shared is rare, priceless, and truly one of a kind. To say she was your Best Friend is an under statement. She seemed like a mother, a sister, a BFF, and a role model. I am so sorry for the sadness in your heart, and the loss that all of your family, and The Nanz’ friends and love ones are feeling. I am so grateful to have had the chance to get to know her through the internet, and to heat her amazing advice she dished on the Podcast. To share something personal with you…this year has been very hard for me as well. The past two have been tough to be honest. One thing that has brought me happiness and joy, and many MANY laughs is your blog and the Podcast! I listened to the episode that featured The Nanz one night while on a walk around my neighborhood. Having a little bit of a down day, I decided to tune into the Podcast and was delighted to hear your Grandma’s voice through my headphones. I listened, and listened again. I think I probably listened to that Pod three times while looping the block. I remembering thinking “ok, Julie…you’re out seeing the shrubs, you’re talking to people in your local stores, you’re stopping to pet someones dog. You are listening to people who make you laugh and your smiling. You are doing everything The Nanz is telling you to do to feel good and “get outside yourself”. YOU are gonna be just fine.” Her voice and her words touched my heart and she was full of wisdom and humor and most of all humility. I sort of fell in love with her lol. I am happy to have been able to hear her words of wisdom that night, and whenever I need a good laugh I always listen to that episode. She was a true Gem, a one of a kind Famous lady in the making. Thank you for sharing your heart and your Best Friend with all of us. She will always be watching you and right there when you need her. She is your shining light and I’m sure of one thing… She left this earth being super fucking Proud of the women you are. All my love to you xoxoxo

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  181. Dee

    ” May the sun bring you new energy every day.
    May the moon softly restore you by night .
    May the rain wash away your worries .
    May the breeze blow new strength into your being .
    May you walk gently through the world
    And know its beauty all the days of your life . ”

    – Apache Blessing

    I´m so sorry about your loss.

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  182. Jennifer

    I’m so sad and I feel a little silly since I didn’t know her. She really touched so many of us readers. You are so incredibly lucky to have had such an epic relationship with her. You can just see the immense love in her eyes for you. So sorry for you loss.

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  183. Olivia

    I am devastated to hear about your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family! Losing my grandmother cut deeper than probably anything I’ve ever experienced. The Nanz would have been so honored by your beautiful tribute to her. What an unforgettable legacy to pass on.

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  185. Margarita

    Fuck! I’m sorry lauryn, i loved the nanz!!! this video has me in tears.
    Hope you’re doing okay, sending love from Florida
    xo

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  186. stylemelauren

    OH my gosh, Lauryn…I cannot believe I am just reading this now. My heart is broken for you as I know how much you cherished every moment with The Nanz. I am thankful I got to see your relationship through the blog, vidoes, snapchat, etc. I know how special she was to you. I’m glad you were able to open up and share this beautiful tribute! I hope you find strength in reliving the wonderful moments you had with her. Ahh I’m so sorry! Sending you so so so much love. xo

    Lauren
    @stylemelauren
    http://www.stylemelauren.com

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  187. Danielle

    I’m so sorry Lauryn. What a beautiful post. It is amazing how many lives The Nanz touched, she touched just my own from thousands of miles away by listening to the podcast and seeing snaps. I believe I speak for all TSC readers when I say her tribute will live on forever. Prays for you in this tough time.

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  188. britt

    Grandparents are the best. Very happy you were able to spend so much time with her, and very grateful you showcased that relationship to our younger generation.

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  202. Michaela

    I am so so sorry to hear this. I loved when you included her in snaps and posts, she was my absolute favorite. The Nanz reminded so much of my grandma who is literally my best friend in the whole entire world too. I cannot even begin to imagine how heartbroken you must be and I am so truly sorry for your loss. ❤

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